I came here to escape the valentine reminders all over instagram
but ughhhh. The second I refresh my feed there is a valentine post.
Not that I hate people for posting related stuff, just generally disheartening that's all. My borderline is getting worse and this is the worst possible time. It doesn't help that yesterday I was stationed in the ICU, and there was a case of an attempted self-hanging, and it kept triggering me so much, I couldn't stop crying every time I had to visit that bed. The woman suffered severe fear of abandonment and rejection, and a series of such events had lead her to try take her own life. I had to give her loads and loads sedatives and opioids to keep her calm. It really broke my heart to see her in so much pain. It was so depressing.
Not that I hate people for posting related stuff, just generally disheartening that's all. My borderline is getting worse and this is the worst possible time. It doesn't help that yesterday I was stationed in the ICU, and there was a case of an attempted self-hanging, and it kept triggering me so much, I couldn't stop crying every time I had to visit that bed. The woman suffered severe fear of abandonment and rejection, and a series of such events had lead her to try take her own life. I had to give her loads and loads sedatives and opioids to keep her calm. It really broke my heart to see her in so much pain. It was so depressing.
26-30, F
