Do you feel you've changed a lot in life?
I used to be on Experience Project and thinking back to those days, I realize how different I was then. Completely different. How about you? Have you changed much in the last 5 years or so? How so?
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Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
Yes. I have started exercising more hard core. I have gained weight. I was single 5 years ago, I've learned lots about myself in this relationship. I've been through therapy twice and today my PTSD symptoms are much better. Except more nightmares. I'm able to take breaks and pause myself now, something that wasn't possible 5 years ago.
@Queendragonfly It sounds like you're doing so well! Congratulations. PTSD is tough to deal with, I also have it.
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
@Angelwarfare It's a bit from day to day. I'm dissociating as we speak. I just woke up from a nightmare and trying to get back to reality. It's tough yes. I'm sorry you suffer from it too. :( 🩵
I have just started a new therapy. To work on the part where I can't ever relax and that my body is stuck in the freeze reaction.
How are you coping with yours? Are you having any profesional help?
I have just started a new therapy. To work on the part where I can't ever relax and that my body is stuck in the freeze reaction.
How are you coping with yours? Are you having any profesional help?
@Queendragonfly Yes, years of therapy. I have layers upon layers of trauma so as soon as I deal with one thing, another pops up. I've blocked a lot of my childhood out so it seems to be a coping mechanism that I can I only remember certain things at certain times, one trauma at a time. The only way I can cope is to try and stay present. When I'm drawn into the flashbacks, I try to say something weird out loud like lalalala, to bring me back to the present. Kinda weird but it works.
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
@Angelwarfare For me it's Cptsd accordingro my therapist, sounds like it might be that for you too as I recognize the symptoms so well. And several traumas. And seeking help all your life.
Yes I actually started humming for myself as I've read it helps to create a vibration in the body to ground myself.
There's no stupid ways as long as they help and don't hurt us 🩵
I struggle with seperate identities so they block out whatever I'm not ready for. I also struggle to recall all traumas. Some people think it's just to rabble them up but that's not how it works with complex ptsd.
Yes I actually started humming for myself as I've read it helps to create a vibration in the body to ground myself.
There's no stupid ways as long as they help and don't hurt us 🩵
I struggle with seperate identities so they block out whatever I'm not ready for. I also struggle to recall all traumas. Some people think it's just to rabble them up but that's not how it works with complex ptsd.
@Queendragonfly
I should try humming, less embarrassing if someone hears! haha
You have DID? The first therapist I ever went to diagnosed me with PTSD but that was quite a while ago, I don't think complex ptsd was a diagnosis then but I could be wrong.
I should try humming, less embarrassing if someone hears! haha
You have DID? The first therapist I ever went to diagnosed me with PTSD but that was quite a while ago, I don't think complex ptsd was a diagnosis then but I could be wrong.
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
@Angelwarfare Yeah or whistle or something. 😅
But now I have processed and accepted it. And learned to cope and how to think. My new therapist don't know this yet though. I told my last therapist to not diagnose me with DID. I didn't want it public or on paper so instead she chose to include it as a cptsd symptom where I "struggle with different fragments" without going in on it too much. We'll see if it comes up in my new therapy. It's CBT so it's a bit different what we focus on there.
About Cptsd. I think it's in the DSM now in most places.
You have DID?
Yes. I didn't know I had it. And I tried to deny it, lie to my therapist, lie on tests. I just thought it was a dissociative thing with PTSD. I didn't want it to be DID because it freaked me out. I know how many who instantly claim you're faking it if they see the word DID. I just didn't wanna be drawing that attention. But now I have processed and accepted it. And learned to cope and how to think. My new therapist don't know this yet though. I told my last therapist to not diagnose me with DID. I didn't want it public or on paper so instead she chose to include it as a cptsd symptom where I "struggle with different fragments" without going in on it too much. We'll see if it comes up in my new therapy. It's CBT so it's a bit different what we focus on there.
About Cptsd. I think it's in the DSM now in most places.
@Queendragonfly I never assume someone is lying (unless they're known liars). That's gotta be rough. I've wondered about myself sometimes, at times. There have only been a couple times, under extreme pressure/stress where I've lost track of time. So pretty sure, I don't have it. That has to be tricky to deal with!
Queendragonfly · 31-35, F
@Angelwarfare Thank you for being one of those who don't invalidate someone else's mental disorders. We need people like you in this world. ❤️
It's tricky but then again, which mental disorders aren't?
It's tricky but then again, which mental disorders aren't?
@Queendragonfly Oh, my pleasure and thank you! <3 I hate when people do stuff like that to me, so I'd never want to do that to anyone else. Very true about mental disorders, it makes everything in life way harder! Especially ones like what you're dealing with.