my nervous system is stupid

hello okay so i had to go get a blood sample thing done or whatever i really dont know about the medical terms okay
and so i was like freaking out im not even scared of needles anymore but i know i was scared of them before and my nervous system has not updated itself since i was 10 aprox in more ways than one so even if i was telling myself " hey dude its not so bad and you know it " my nervous system was again freaking out
so now timeskip we are at the place where the magic happens woohoo so they do the stuff and i look away for my own sake and fucking shit after half a minute i start getting dizzy but i stay quiet because i need to be manly you know im not afraid of needles what makes you think that and well i faint

when i woke up my mom took a picture of me and i looked like a ghost i later sent that pic to my friends and they played tic tac toe on my forehead and im still offended by it but whatever

the nurse who was the sweetest thing ever by the way told me that basically my nervous system kind of crashed and sent blood to all the vital parts of my body except my fucking brain as if thats not one or the most important organ in my body and so no blood no consciousness i guess

but its fine its a cool anecdote plus my mom got me candy after though i still feel dizzy
also my exams are fine apparently just my vitamin D is pretty low because i have the lifestyle of an incel and dont go under sunlight by any means id ramble about my hatred for sunlight but ill probably do that in another post