I don't know how i feel.
is this sadness, is it stress, is it nostalgia, am I happy? what do i enjoy to do, when should I allow myself to feel happy. should I do the things I enjoy, should i work tirelessly? should I study. should I listen to the radio to tune in with the world. should i connect with family? they dont bother saying anything.
why am I alone? what did I do to deserve this. I know it's nothing, the answer is nothing. the people who were mean were doing nothing. I want to create, build something complex with complex thought. have something new to look back on. I need to keep going but I dont know where I'm headed and there doesn't seem to be new ground. am I awake, or what am I experiencing, a void? a dangerous place to be in, where you feel nothing to affect you. not somewhere you want to be, even if it protects you.
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why am I alone? what did I do to deserve this. I know it's nothing, the answer is nothing. the people who were mean were doing nothing. I want to create, build something complex with complex thought. have something new to look back on. I need to keep going but I dont know where I'm headed and there doesn't seem to be new ground. am I awake, or what am I experiencing, a void? a dangerous place to be in, where you feel nothing to affect you. not somewhere you want to be, even if it protects you.
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