The blissful loner
Even if i just be selfishly involved with only what interests me, it may not be 100% folly to remain an active member here, some times i might interact a little, last thing i need however is thinking i may have bothered or angered anyone. It's nice however to have some place to write out whatever's on the mind.
I am bailing on the book club, as i consciously ran out of funds so it wouldn't have been able to be renewed in a couple days, the highlight was actually sharing some words with Ben, the leader of the group, he's like an idol of mine, but i tend to avoid him more often than not, because it's too weird to have an idol who's alive at the moment.
Dad tonight was perturbed about not getting much done today, he's like going on 80, and sicker than a bat and he still feels awful about not potentially injuring himself, now that's the protestant work ethic run amok!! But i was nice to him, and wrote an encouraging note to him, afterwards i thought of mom, how not too long before she went i said to her "When you go, i go", so i thought to myself "No mom, i decided to help dad through this, without you here, he needs me even more, and i have trouble thinking how i could do it when he goes" ....
I love O'Neill's The Long Days Journey into Night, jam packed with pathos, an unflinching look at a troubled family from morning to after midnight. It will be great to see the performance of it on YouTube at some point.
It's another overnight where i'm in pure bliss btw ... i know these kinds of days won't happen indefinitely, all the more reason to cherish them, the way one uniquely sees fit, for me i find it best to be aloof and away from any congested activity, life as a party, i'm in a well equipped limousine in the parking lot, making the most of it.
I am bailing on the book club, as i consciously ran out of funds so it wouldn't have been able to be renewed in a couple days, the highlight was actually sharing some words with Ben, the leader of the group, he's like an idol of mine, but i tend to avoid him more often than not, because it's too weird to have an idol who's alive at the moment.
Dad tonight was perturbed about not getting much done today, he's like going on 80, and sicker than a bat and he still feels awful about not potentially injuring himself, now that's the protestant work ethic run amok!! But i was nice to him, and wrote an encouraging note to him, afterwards i thought of mom, how not too long before she went i said to her "When you go, i go", so i thought to myself "No mom, i decided to help dad through this, without you here, he needs me even more, and i have trouble thinking how i could do it when he goes" ....
I love O'Neill's The Long Days Journey into Night, jam packed with pathos, an unflinching look at a troubled family from morning to after midnight. It will be great to see the performance of it on YouTube at some point.
It's another overnight where i'm in pure bliss btw ... i know these kinds of days won't happen indefinitely, all the more reason to cherish them, the way one uniquely sees fit, for me i find it best to be aloof and away from any congested activity, life as a party, i'm in a well equipped limousine in the parking lot, making the most of it.
