I Had a Meltdown Today [I Have a Blog]

I guess the stress just piled on a little heavy today. I'm at risk of losing everything, and finances are the main reason. It's a complicated situation, and I don't have the solutions for most of it. I've brought some of it on myself, and the rest is just terrible luck. I've been working hard these past few months. I've lost over 20 pounds, I've secured a full-time job, and I have clear goals set on the horizon. Today, I feel like all of it was peeled back, and it seems everything is just a big lie. It's like I'm watching someone else's life unfold. Mine is still the same crap it's always been, just temporarily paused. My wife was my support system, and she died in 2018. I have no one at this time in my life. I really don't know how much longer I can keep pushing.