Not Coping Well with Soberness
It's like I forget how bad being fully conscious to the shitty reality around me truly is when I've gone a while without being sober. (And if you think it's so great I think you're selfish or delusional personally.) Then my weed person takes like a week to ship my stuff even when I pay for expedited shipping, and I have to suffer facing reality in full again.
I'm not proud to admit I'm so desperate I decided to dig some bits of weed out of my futon creases to smoke today. I don't like being so reliant on drugs now, but the truth is my quality of life falls below the acceptable line when I don't have them nowadays. And I can't eat or sleep hardly at all when I take a break, my favorite things (and cats). It's never worth it. I know weed only works because it makes you not care as much and be satisfied with less, but sometimes when there is no real solution to your problems or when they are out of your control then I don't see the problem with that.
I'm not proud to admit I'm so desperate I decided to dig some bits of weed out of my futon creases to smoke today. I don't like being so reliant on drugs now, but the truth is my quality of life falls below the acceptable line when I don't have them nowadays. And I can't eat or sleep hardly at all when I take a break, my favorite things (and cats). It's never worth it. I know weed only works because it makes you not care as much and be satisfied with less, but sometimes when there is no real solution to your problems or when they are out of your control then I don't see the problem with that.
