What are you searching for...
I been on dates that started good, they bought tge meal, they picked up the bill, they kissed my cheek, bid me goodnight, but never a second date.
I had a long relationship that ended in 11 yrs of him living a double life..he made me his wife then left me for his mistress , they got enhaged and he would call me anytime they fought and i became the side chick until his mistress decided she didnt want him either.
I was a faithful, hardworking wife, honest, open..sometimes annoying, but i got quirks and perks too..that happens being human...yet after the divorce, i felt broken, lonely, and worst of all unloved.
Now, 9 months later, im ok.
I pay my bills, i clean my apartment, i work my job and i still feel alone. His side of the bed was once warm and inviting..now covered with tear stained pillows and a big blanket i wrestle with nightly.
I threw away everything about him, and yet his lips on mine in my dreams, i fall asleep remembering the arms that held me tight..the cuddles, every day i wake up, i look at his picture...so i through it out. I us3d to hold onto his shirt, the dumpster ate it . I threw out EVERYTHING except the love in my heart..now im healing and ill be able one day to be loved again.
I am not quite sure what im searching for, but i know what id like:
A non smoker
No drugs, no drinking
Goes to church, loves music
Drives a truck, likes to go camping, fishing, hunting..doesnt mind sleeping under tge stars or cuddles on the couch.
Its not too much to ask, but after 11 yrs of being a whole, now im half a person...now i need to heal and wait to see if my heart will beat again as deeply as it did for him...
I had a long relationship that ended in 11 yrs of him living a double life..he made me his wife then left me for his mistress , they got enhaged and he would call me anytime they fought and i became the side chick until his mistress decided she didnt want him either.
I was a faithful, hardworking wife, honest, open..sometimes annoying, but i got quirks and perks too..that happens being human...yet after the divorce, i felt broken, lonely, and worst of all unloved.
Now, 9 months later, im ok.
I pay my bills, i clean my apartment, i work my job and i still feel alone. His side of the bed was once warm and inviting..now covered with tear stained pillows and a big blanket i wrestle with nightly.
I threw away everything about him, and yet his lips on mine in my dreams, i fall asleep remembering the arms that held me tight..the cuddles, every day i wake up, i look at his picture...so i through it out. I us3d to hold onto his shirt, the dumpster ate it . I threw out EVERYTHING except the love in my heart..now im healing and ill be able one day to be loved again.
I am not quite sure what im searching for, but i know what id like:
A non smoker
No drugs, no drinking
Goes to church, loves music
Drives a truck, likes to go camping, fishing, hunting..doesnt mind sleeping under tge stars or cuddles on the couch.
Its not too much to ask, but after 11 yrs of being a whole, now im half a person...now i need to heal and wait to see if my heart will beat again as deeply as it did for him...
41-45, F
