I Think I Was Created to Be Alone Forever

Born into a large family, being the second youngest. Of course I'm the quiet one. The rest of my family is so outgoing. When I was abandoned by my mom when I was 6, I knew I will always be forever alone. My sisters don't want to hang out with me, I grew up with my brothers. After my older brother molested me when I was 8, everything changed. I tried so hard to make friends but they just think I'm weird. I was quiet & shy, that's okay because I know who I am. Added timid, afraid of talking to strangers/men, socially awkward after all what happened, friends I met along the way. I thought of them as my best friends but they never thought of me that way & it made me so sad. I was so lonely, I didn't realize I'm the clingy type of friend. No wonder girls don't want to be friend with me. :'( I realize I'm lack of female interaction in my life, I became clingy. My mom is too busy with her job to care, my sisters don't like to hang out with me. My friends don't like me being clingy... It's a lose-lose situation... I am truly forever alone in this world...