I understand what u going through and I could help what u seek in life is family, love, mostly freedom I have had my family kick me out like I was nothing, had friends who turned their back on me, had people who didn't like me and girls who always made fun of me or they would date me then hurt me but u know why because they all have not what u have they want u to fail as they did, they want to see u stop trying because they can't try at all they forcing the word give up into u and if u let these feelings subdue u then they will win but I am advising u to never think you're alone because u never are I mean I think of myself in the same way but because thought negative thoughts are in my mind each day its what keeps me going its what I basically need to get through everyday positive thoughts are only there to support ya but negative ones will force u to keep moving in on everything hard even if no one cares/d u show them that u care for them show them that u feel alone but the world is not your friend its your family take in all the pain drown it in eventually you'll start swimming and every breath you're fighting for will make u stronger just never ever surrender your trust to anyone not even me but I write to u to tell u we may not be the same but what u feel I have experienced it trust me the pain will kick in and grow in your for months maybe more however as u moan each detail, each thought, each haunt, each feeling, each taste you'll know what to do, how or when to do it some people will come as angels and some as demons what u have to consider is that you're much great than your past it doesn't define who u are but its where u come from its impossible to make peace with it so I suggest u live with it because every day is a future past time is our only enemy make use of that time making your own family never have friends because the world has no friends for us only family you cannot give up because of what happened to ya or someone who had told u that u can't do this no long as u live no matter how many times u fail or get hurt its not over the game is still on so keep playing your role you hear me because your dreams, gifts await u in the years to come life is like prayer when we kneel before the Lord and recite our prayer the answer everyone gets is WAIT... U know because God knows what u doing and working on now is just less wait till u see what he has for u in the future all he's asking for is time the time for u to just be patient and understanding so live you're not alone I have the same experience its time to get up and keep going you will fall someday but never lay down period just get up and keep going!
