I Am Working On Myself

It may not look like I am on the outside, (Which I would like to improve on as well.) but I am having a hard time working on the me that is inside. My biggest offender is my self-confidence. I have a minuscule amount of it and it makes me wonder why. I do love myself, but I always find something that I don't like about myself and it gets the better of me instead of thinking positively. My boyfriend says he loves every inch of me no matter what, but I can't help but think at the same time, "What if I did lose weight? What if I was sexier? Would he like me better?" I know I can't base my self-love on someone else's opinion, but I can't find the definitive answers I need. I have to really push myself and get to where I want to be, but I need someone to give me the first push or to stand by my side and motivate me. If only losing weight, getting more tattoos and looking like the me I want to look like could happen overnight... But dreams are dreams and in reality, I have to work for what I want...