I Am Working On Myself

It may not look like I am on the outside, (Which I would like to improve on as well.) but I am having a hard time working on the me that is inside. My biggest offender is my self-confidence. I have a minuscule amount of it and it makes me wonder why. I do love myself, but I always find something that I don't like about myself and it gets the better of me instead of thinking positively. My boyfriend says he loves every inch of me no matter what, but I can't help but think at the same time, "What if I did lose weight? What if I was sexier? Would he like me better?" I know I can't base my self-love on someone else's opinion, but I can't find the definitive answers I need. I have to really push myself and get to where I want to be, but I need someone to give me the first push or to stand by my side and motivate me. If only losing weight, getting more tattoos and looking like the me I want to look like could happen overnight... But dreams are dreams and in reality, I have to work for what I want...

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PhoenixPhail · M

Losing weight, getting more tattoos and looking like the you that you want to look like, may be taking you further away from yourself than into it. This entire world has been set up to make it look like material things are all that is, and the more STUFF you have, the more of a person you are. It's totally bogus. Self confidence and being a successful person isn't something you wear, any more than class or status.

Kudos to you for wanting to improve yourself. Beware of wolves is sheep's clothing. Find out what FEELS good to you which aligns you with your True Nature, your Inner Being, Higher Power, God, whatever you want to call it. Don't fall for imagery as that which you are in essence. When you believe you are your identity - what you have, what you wear, how sexy you are - there's no way for you to find the true person you really are. That's what the people who run the planet would love for you to do. It keeps you consuming, which keeps them calling the shots.

Stay away from television. It's toxic and keeps you in a place of wanting, thinking you need to become what it projects, and consuming its junk. Take walks in nature. Practice self-inquiry. Stop comparing, judging, evaluating, being critical. Nothing is more or less valuable than anything else. Use what you have in a way that helps you to close the gap between your authentic self, and your acquired self masquerading as your authentic self. Observe the differences. Be easy with it, have fun with it, and don't be so hard on yourself.

You want your boyfriend to be pleased with you? Become the best version or YOU you can be. Everything else will fall into place.

Good Luck.

belly4babygirl · 26-30, F

This surely rings true to my heart! Your words of wisdom will come in very handy and thank god I don't have cable! Thank you for your kind and inspiring words!

PhoenixPhail · M

@belly4babygirl: Your reply is honoring to both of us. Thank you for your words, and for being here and telling your truth. (I thank God you don't have cable, too.)

Be Well.