I Think Too Much

It sucks to have 'sensitive' as a personality trait. I'm constantly reading into what people say, their body language, how they feel about me. Someone can even tell me point blank and my first reaction is why? What made you like me? Is this a ruse?

Sometimes it gets so bad that I try to shut down my brain with sleep or distractions just to stop questioning why my SO is in a relationship with me or what I could have done to avoid an irate customer at work or why did I have to fall for a scam.

Thinking too much is an understatement. I ruminate and toil with my problems and other peoples problems and thoughts about me. It's exhausting. I wish I could rewire my brain to stop.

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Ginkofishin · 26-30, F

I didn't realize how much these three paragraphs could be pulled apart to reveal that much about me. I appreciate the discussion, It's always good to reflect on myself.

The funny thing is that I was told by my abusing ex that I was unempathetic and selfish. To have someone tell me that I seem empathetic is one of the best things I've heard in a long time. Thank you.

I also have struggled with feeling undeserving, and while I feel like I deserve the things I have in life, I can't help but wonder now if I'm just putting up a front for myself to avoid feeling undeserving. I grew up in a verbally and emotionally abusive household, and perpetuated the abuse in those an an abusive relatoonsho for 3 years. It's not far off to believe I harbour those feelings. That's something else I'll need to look into myself for and work on. Thank you, you guys. I really mean it.