If you could go back and talk to your 14 or 15 year old self for 12 hours, what would you say?

I would sit with her and tell her that her mom is really struggling and to give her a little break because your dad is an abusive covert narcissist. That what you are experiencing is abuse and your father is gaslighting you to think otherwise.

I'd have a conversation about having healthy boundaries with people and myself and make sure I knew it was okay not silly to get help for feeling depressed. I'd also talk about neurodivergents and how girls can present their divergency differently than boys.