Happy birthday Ed

It’s my birthday today and I’m not asking for nothing because it’s pointless i just want to be able to go out with friends and family for my birthday but the only thing that is stopping my life to be normal is my seizures it’s ruining my life ever since I was 12 years old now I’m 34 years old and I can’t live my life without seizures keep me from going out every single person that is part of my life and family and friends have been praying for me and also crying and I just feel terrible for them because they care so much for me and my seizures are ruining everything