Self isolating and I can't seem to stop

I'm incredibly lonely but my social anxiety and the fact that I have absolutely nothing to offer anyone holds me back from even trying to socialize. I've reverted to how I felt during one of the worst periods in my life- my teen years. All I do is work, come home, and lie in bed escaping into a book. I don't have the energy for anything else. I feel myself pulling away from everyone, because it's the closest thing to unaliving myself for now.

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PEARLW · 56-60, FNew

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. What you are describing takes a lot of courage to admit, and I want you to know that your feelings are valid, even if they are painful. Please don’t believe the lie that you have nothing to offer your honesty, your ability to feel deeply, those are all things that matter more than you know.
It sounds like you are overwhelmed and exhausted, not just physically but emotionally. That kind of tiredness can make even the smallest things feel impossible. But even though it might not feel like it now, connection is still possible. You don’t have to fix everything or be at your best to be worthy of friendship or love. You matter, even when it doesn’t feel like it. Please be gentle with yourself right now. And if you need someone to talk to, I am here.