First thing is to put yourself first. Make sure you respect yourself before you can expect others to respect you. Everyone goes through lonely times. Keep positive . Your confidence is attactive

I can definitely relate to your current plight.

Maybe you are trying to rush into things too fast? You're still very young

Your not alone, no matter how young or old you are.

Same here only I couldn't care less if I put actual effort into it. There's not enough sand, barron rock and creosote brush on earth to satisfy me. I'm going to drop dead alone, fall off a 300 foot cliff. Splatter all over the rocks so the buzzards don't even have to chew. Then I'm going to haunt the F out of every old shack, trailer, mine and old truck carcass there is.