I feel very lonely. People outside my room are laughing. I can't go, as I am in a very different mood...

I might consider leaving this Airbnb even though it's been quite comfortable but I feel stuck again and lonely ? I somehow feel rejected from her, the woman living here with her husband and brother. It mirrors my family thing, my mom never paying much attention to me and somewhat rejecting me.
Am I doing this now? Maybe..
They are all laughing hysterically outside.