I Am Lonely

I miss my wife. Cancer took her from me a couple years ago. The loneliness is crippling at times. I miss having someone to talk to, someone to kiss after I get home from work. There's a lot I miss. What hurts the most is knowing how much life I have ahead of me, and she won't be here for any of it.

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4meAndyou · F

It is really awful to lose someone you loved so much. It just sucks. Don't dwell on the possible length of your life without her. Any one of us, no matter how young, could get hit by a bus tomorrow. I recommend, instead, staying very busy. If you are worn out, physically, you can just drop into bed and sleep and you won't be torturing yourself.

ChickenNugget · 36-40, M

@4meAndyou Thank you! I've been tired. I work a lot to take my thoughts away from it. Sleeping is great, but I usually have nightmares.

4meAndyou · F

@ChickenNugget You are still working through all the horror you felt, and that will take years. But after enough time passes, your raw wounds will scar over. Even your mind will heal.

ChickenNugget · 36-40, M

@4meAndyou I hope that day is soon.

4meAndyou · F

@ChickenNugget They make a non-addictive over the counter sleep aid, called Z-Quil, and it's just to help you sleep. It usually makes you sleep a little deeper than REM, so it might help with the dreams. Exhaustion without a restful sleep will delay your own healing process, and might even affect your immune system.

ChickenNugget · 36-40, M

@4meAndyou I may try that. Thank you!