I feel bad..

My grandma took me to eat, and she clearly wanted to talk about a lot, but the whole time my mind was overly chaotic and struggling to think about how much food was on the plate, and the obsession to track what I eat.. So I couldn't focus, and I know she could tell that I felt off.

It's bad.
I saw my doctor the other day, and she straight out asked me how my mental health is doing (regarding eating disorders), I told her it's fine, and then told her that I skipped eating a banana cause I didn't want the extra 100kcal, even tho my average intake - exercise is around 1000kcal, so I can easily fit that in.. She told me that I need to speak to my therapist about it, and to stop tracking everything I eat, but It's my coping mechanism right now, and he paused my sessions until I get my sleep in order..

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Sunshine59 · F

Have you or been diagnosed with body dysmorphia? You might need counselling, I'm an overthinker, so I used to think way too much before bed and at times, as soon as I hit the pillow, it would start. Maybe it's stress for you? That's what it was for me, I couldn't sleep, at times maybe 3 hours a night, most nights I dreaded going to bed, soon as I got rid of stress i felt better and slept well, good luck , get well soon

Cassieeeee · 31-35, F

@Sunshine59 No, but I've been diagnosed with cptsd, adhd, and an eating disorder. Thank you