My ego is over. This is weird, yet wonderful.

@MartinTheFirst For the people I'm exposed to, it's yes, mostly. I want to understand why I'm still disappointed in people's limits. Perhaps it's because of outside factors that I'm still changing. But I'm feeling disgusted. Loving my solitude so much.

*Edit for understanding

@MarbleMarvel For me it got to a point where I was so disappointed every time in other people that I just had to let all of my expectations go. I no longer accepted things from them, nor would I ask things from them. I'm not sure if that's generally regarded as healthy, but it healed my relationship with my brother at least, even if it hurt for a while to make such an obvious change.

What's making you feel disgusted, if you want to elaborate?

@MartinTheFirst I feel very similar to what you described. I don't want anything from anyone, I don't care what they think of me... It's overall frustrating to exist in an environment where people won't accept you because they can't accept themselves. They don't see how beautiful it all is. They can't stop judging. The humble part of me knows I have no control over them and trying to change them is no different than them trying to change me. I want to let that go and just live my life. I believe it's buried somewhere in my reactive to it. Something automatic I don't need or want anymore.

@NudasPriest thank you 😂

@Ferric67 yeah this is the most beautiful disappointment so far