I already knew there would be people who started hating me after being honest

It's alright. I've made a ton of mistakes in my life & I never tried to hide any of 'em. If anything, I try to be honest & take responsibility because lying or acting like nothing happened only upholds a false image. I'd rather be hated for being real than to be liked for pretending.

I used to do a lot of dumb shit... in the early days of SW people often thought I glorified drugs & violence. I got hate for that. I wasn't trying to glorify anything I was just being honest about what I was going through at the time. I changed a lot during the time I was gone & when I came back I was mainly just telling stories about my past. We have a lot different perspectives when we're reflecting on shit vs. when we're really going through it. I suppose that's why people have a lot different responses as well. When you're reflecting, people support you.. but when you're really going through it, they'll criticize. We just gotta remind ourselves that a strangers criticisms don't change our outcome or define who we are.

I understand that there's gonna be people who dislike me for certain mistakes & there's nothing I can do about that. I don't think I'm better or different than anybody else & I don't defend my actions because I know I'm wrong.. I wouldn't be speaking up if I didn't.
It hurts a bit that there's people who think I'm such a bad person that I don't deserve to be around but I suppose those opinions don't matter either. I'm still grateful to even have a chance at all. & Even though I'm ashamed of my mistakes at times I'm grateful that I can admit to them because it helps me face my reality without hiding.