One question. Do you know exactly where you will spend eternity? If you're not sure, then don't be making life and death decisions. Once you cross over, there's no coming back or changing your mind. There's only one way to be sure and that is to give your heart and Life to Jesus and let him heal you and your pain. You scare me, because I can see that you don't realize the seriousness and consequences of your decision to leave, when I know you're not sure where you end up. In your state of mind, you cannot reason that well, and could make the wrong decision... the worst decision of your whole life... and then what would you do, stuck in eternity with no way out? And you will not have friends around you. You will be alone. Alone and scared. YOU may not care about yourself, the God does, and so do we. Oh, and one other person cares desperately about you. His name is Satan and he wants you to live with him, instead of giving your life to Christ. I know that may not seem true now but I guarantee you it is in the Bible. Surely you love yourself more than to just throw your life away. You are of infinite value to the Lord. But he won't be able to rescue you if you won't let him. The most important decision all of us will ever make in our life is to decide where we'll spend eternity, because we'll be there forever so we want to make sure we'll go to the right place.
