I don't intend on holding grudges..it's just some people tend to be so irritating and stupid I cannot help but think about how much I wish they'd shut up/leave me alone. And those people know who they are too.
I did when I was younger. They're easier to give up when you're younger. The problem with holding them, is you become them. And then when you're ready to give them up, sometimes they're not ready to give you up.
Forgiveness doesn't mean connectedness. It doesn't mean you ever have to eat at the same table again. It just means you refuse to let hatred control your thoughts, your emotions.