i just wanna cry

If you feel cramped with being with him 24/7, it means you are not ready for a 24/7 commitment to him. Nothing wrong with that at your age; you should be exploring all options in your life before making a commitment. Doesn't mean you need to break off with him. Does mean he should be giving you some space so you don't feel cramped, and if he is unwilling to do that it is time to run because it is a warning sign of a controlling, potentially abusive relationship. If there truly is something between you, giving each other some space will only solidify those feelings and help you make up your mind.

You are hurt.. what would give you an idea you are doing the right thing for yourself?

You know I might just join you... My water service has been busted for a couple days now, it's a holiday weekend, I been out in the front yard digging holes, my back is F'ing killing me!!!

I could use a good cry right now!

Step back. You're young. You're not supposed to know anything yet. Don't be so hard on yourself.

Luv it is hard to understand why do people love it ms a never ending struggle

I cry every night night wondering what could have been

Life is a struggle for me and you but be strong and follow your dreams