When was the last time you cried

For me it was this morning. You know I wish I had a choice in weather or not I wanted to exist. I'd have chosen not to be born.

I want to go to sleep and never wake up but apparently I'm still alive. Why can't people that matter, people that have kids that depend on them be the ones that are spared.

I'm just tired. Desperate for eternal rest. Does anybody understand 😭😭😭.

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MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

i understand, but there's still hope

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst I know but I'm just tired🥺

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati Have a rest 🤗

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst If only it was that easy. My mind just won't stop.

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati Well I think all the time as well but you know, some kinds of thinking are more refreshing than others. Sometimes having a big bad cry while drinking can really refresh your senses

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst I only drink water. Besides I'm a [b]PK[/b] ☺

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati previous.... k... hm... What's PK?

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst Pastor's kid 😄

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati having an alcohol ban while dreaming of death seems kinda weird to me but alright 🤷‍♀️

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst It's not really a ban. It's a choice I had to make. I was struggling with depression and when I was drunk or high I'd still cry. It seemed like a waste of time using alcohol or pot to ease the pain so I quit both.

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati well it certainly can be a waste of time

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst Yet people still do it

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Lichocolati it's not always a waste of time

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@MartinTheFirst I guess if depends

Cloud7593 · 46-50, F

@Lichocolati Alcohol is a depressant anyway.

Lichocolati · 31-35, F

@Cloud7593 Agreed

MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

@Cloud7593 thats just a small part of the drug