So.... something that always hurts me. Is when people mock me when I say "one of my friends told me..."
And they Snicker and say "what friends?"
It's like a constant in my life.
I'm surrounded by high achievers. Because of my profession I think? I work in healthcare. Most people are competitive, clever, smart, highly social, and among them I stick out like a sore thumb when I can't crack a witty remark in a situation, and am mostly quiet. Despite smiling and being decent, and now fairly interactive, I still get this remark.
I literally got it today as well. "What friends are you talking about? You have friends?".
I'm so tired of life. No matter where you are, the plague just follows you around. You can't ever run away from your shadow.
I want to cry.
Why do I look like I don't have friends? Why can't I look like other normal people? Why can't I just blend in for once?
It's like a constant in my life.
I'm surrounded by high achievers. Because of my profession I think? I work in healthcare. Most people are competitive, clever, smart, highly social, and among them I stick out like a sore thumb when I can't crack a witty remark in a situation, and am mostly quiet. Despite smiling and being decent, and now fairly interactive, I still get this remark.
I literally got it today as well. "What friends are you talking about? You have friends?".
I'm so tired of life. No matter where you are, the plague just follows you around. You can't ever run away from your shadow.
I want to cry.
Why do I look like I don't have friends? Why can't I look like other normal people? Why can't I just blend in for once?
31-35, F
