If any of my friends or other people have questions about ECT.

@kodiac bi lateral. that’s very specific. have you done?

@kodiac I’ve actually never had uni. It’s always been bi lateral.

@JustGoneNow Yes, they told me bi has less memory loss. Wouldn't it be awesome if they could target specific memories and wipe them out permanently? I was pretty young and it was done to try to pinpoint why i was having tonic clonic seizures, to find triggers guess

@kodiac mine was trying to induce a seize to target parts of the brain that causes schizophrenia. It affects my memories too but that’s collateral damage, it’s done for my mental illness. Drug and treatment resistant mental illness.

@kodiac from what I understood, they always start with bi lateral unless it’s not inducing effective seizures and then they move to uni. apparently bi lateral must produce the effective seizures they need for me, because I’ve never been moved to uni.

@JustGoneNow Yup most people don't understand it at all ,it's not like they stick a cattle prod on you head ! They would put me to sleep do it and monitor my brain function. When i woke up i felt fine with a little memory loss but hell i didn't want to remember anyway lol. Glad you're back here with us .

@JustGoneNow Same for me

@kodiac yeah. I just thought that I was done with that. Last time was like six or seven years ago, I think. Just kinda tired of being me, I guess. They do always give me a mouth guard thing to bite into. Probably so you don’t bite your tongue when you seize.

@JustGoneNow yeah i used to have to sleep with the mouth guard .It does help you though right?

@kodiac somewhat debatable. it’s made the visions and delusions less. I’ll say that. they said it would help with my bipolar too, but I’m not sure it’s done anything at all actually for that. being really honest, my schizophrenia had me locked in a near constant delusioned and visioned state almost 17 years ago, and medication wouldn’t even touch it at that point. So, grudgingly… I have to say yes. It’s most likely the reason I was able to get out of long term care at all. I have less faith in it now, as it sort of seems to be the law of diminishing returns, but whatever. We’ll see how this time goes. I just really hate the side effects. As you know, there’s no pain but I feel like I lose parts of myself each time. That might not be true but it is how it feels.