I don't do anything productive anymore

I used to be such a bookworm and such a lover of learning, but I haven't watched or read anything in many, many months. I sometimes read a few pages from an old novel I have, but I haven't done any serious reading or learning of any kind in a long time. I pick up a book, feel disgusted and put it down. I feel like books have failed me because all the time I have invested in them didn't help me achieve anything real.

I'm basically blaming my lack of many real life skills on the fact that I used to spend all my time reading and trying to learn more... (and I know this is utterly ridiculous, but that's where I am now). I sometimes come across interesting books and download them but I can't get passed the first or second page. Yesterday I downloaded "The Diary of a Nobody" and "Excellent Women". Old books, good reviews, but I'm not reading them

hartfire

It depends on what you read and what you do with the information.
When I first left home I had only a few basic cooking skills which my mother had taught me.
By boyfriend had terrible acne.
I bought a book called Let's Eat Healthy by Adele Davis, which described the connection between nutrition and food and offered recipes for various special needs. I stated cooking her dishes and within two weeks my boyfriend's acne cleared up and never returned during the time we were together. Ever since, I have always eaten only fresh and whole foods, no preservatives, refined sugars or starches or highly processed foods. I'm now 66 and still in good health.
Some books can increase our general knowledge so we can become better conversationalists.
Some help us learn how to think.
Some help us develop hobbies or become better at our work or find ways to help others.
And some are purely for pleasure, which I consider not a bad thing. We all need down time and leisure.

nothereforpeople · F

@Ontheroad I think so. I'm just so full of negativity, and I feel like I have failed miserably and that nothing can ever be fixed (although I know this is not true, but you can't help how you feel sometimes). I feel pretty low all the time, from the moment I open my eyes. I think about death a lot and although I know I'm not ready to die yet, I think "what's the point of my being alive?" . The last time this happened was in 2020. For months, I was under a lot of pressure, and in the end I had a really bad seizure

aah anyway, sorry to bother you with all of this. I think the solution is for me to travel a bit... I think a change of scenery and being away from my family would do me good and rid of quite a bit of negativity, but I can't go anywhere right now, partly because my parents disapprove and partly because I have kind of lost the will to save myself

Sorry for all this blabbing. Enjoy your day

DestroyerOfIdeologies · 22-25, M

You can learn some real life skills with books. I mean there are books that teach you how to saw, change electrical sockets and all that. Might even be safer than following some know it all who suddenly gets into a serious accident cause he doesnt practice safety procedures.