I hope you can hear this gently: the drugs didn't just take the job—they promised something they could never actually deliver. Drugs always take more than they give, quietly at first, then all at once. That betrayal is part of what makes the regret sting so much, but it's also a hard, clear truth that can protect you moving forward. You deserved better than what the drugs offered, and so does the version of you that still exists today.

You're already showing strength by reflecting on this openly instead of running from it. If you're not already, leaning into support—whether that's talking to someone trusted, a meeting, a counselor, or even just small daily steps that rebuild trust in yourself—can make a real difference. You've survived a whole year since that day. That's not nothing. It means you're capable of more healing and better chapters ahead.

You're not alone in this, and you don't have to figure it all out by yourself. Sending you quiet kindness and hope for today and the days after.

I mean taking drugs at work is pretty bad, he could have called the police but doesn’t sound like he did so really that could mean he gave you the benefit of the doubt and gave you the chance to make it better on your own. I was fired from my job 3 years ago because a resident in the care home i worked in accused me of pushing her. I didn’t but the police were involved and although It could have ruined my life, I later after a week spoke to my manager on the phone and she told me to take care and to look after myself on my next life plan.

Even one day sober would mean the world to the person you’ve described. More importantly, today should mean something to YOU. Every day that you’re able to stay sober should. Be proud of yourself, whether others are or not. I’m proud of you.

[@jackforrester ] 🤔sorry i have been blunt but by taking drugs in work for all the high hopes and asperations you let both yourself and the boss down and maybe ruined a bright future. but to the positive you should be proud of yourself and managed to keep clean for such a length of time

Go back and see him. It won't change the mistakes of the past, but it might help you just to have that talk with him.

Congrats!

Good for you getting clean.

Keep it up

Good. Stay clean.