i don't know anyone who has been through what i have
and this makes me very sad, bitter and annoyed too.
because i've had such hard life of having mental problems, trauma, and other problems, i missed out on my 20s and 30s, never got what i wanted, never achieved what i wanted, never got the relationships i wanted and never lived, i have basically spent my entire 20s & 30s coping with my mental problems, being by myself and now i'm in my late 40s?
i've lived alone 20 years in a little flat 'doing better' with my own hard work, my only support are my elderly parents who live far away, lost touch with friends of my youth,....my childhood was wonderful.
but feel devastated at what i've missed out on, no one i know of or see online has missed out to that extent, or been through what i have been through, and that makes me feel very alone and disconnected from people, from society.
seriously now, how can i possibly come to terms with everything i've gone through and missed out on? my entire twenties and thirties gone.....my mother was saying there's no point in dwelling on what missed out on now, it only hurts me and causes more stress.....i have to focus on what have now and what i'm trying to work towards and the years i still have left?
does anyone have any thoughts about this?
because i've had such hard life of having mental problems, trauma, and other problems, i missed out on my 20s and 30s, never got what i wanted, never achieved what i wanted, never got the relationships i wanted and never lived, i have basically spent my entire 20s & 30s coping with my mental problems, being by myself and now i'm in my late 40s?
i've lived alone 20 years in a little flat 'doing better' with my own hard work, my only support are my elderly parents who live far away, lost touch with friends of my youth,....my childhood was wonderful.
but feel devastated at what i've missed out on, no one i know of or see online has missed out to that extent, or been through what i have been through, and that makes me feel very alone and disconnected from people, from society.
seriously now, how can i possibly come to terms with everything i've gone through and missed out on? my entire twenties and thirties gone.....my mother was saying there's no point in dwelling on what missed out on now, it only hurts me and causes more stress.....i have to focus on what have now and what i'm trying to work towards and the years i still have left?
does anyone have any thoughts about this?
46-50, M
