I'm not happy with my life

been using this site since I was 19. I left, came back, left again, and now after a couple of years I'm back here. It's nice to share my feelings anonymously here. I live in a family filled with toxicity, backbiting, betrayal, and fights. I’ve been depressed throughout my late teens up until now I don't know how to be happy anymore. I live in a third world country where things are not pretty easy to do. I wonder how it's for the people in same condition living in first world. Btw Hi to y'all !!

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Coralmist · 41-45, F

I lived in first world but with a toxic, sociopath cruel mother. My life has been a nightmare. I have chronic PTSD as an adult from years of threats, gaslighting, control, extreme ridicule etc.
She would rage so much and once threatened to kill me. It is extremely hard just getting by day to day, I feel nonhuman.
I am unemployed so things are very tight financially. People say just take baby steps to find joy or confidence but this affected every part of life, not only work or only dating etc. So it feels overwhelming try ing to heal all of it. But I'm going to keep on, day by day even a little.
My heart goes out to you🌷

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Mishi · 22-25, FNew

@Coralmist It's easier said than done, I have tried and it's hard to be happy. I feel you and I wish best for you ^^