Long time no see😔

Hi it's been a year and a half sense iv been on here..it's been hard I just lost my grandma and I thought I could save her from everything but ik know that was not the case.....IV been fighting depression and sleep loss/hallucinations .....it's gotten so bad I don't even go out side hardly any more and IV been slightly losing my mind .....so I'm need some friends and fresh air .....😌