Ever felt so empty

Emotionless, except for sadness or anger, or sadness that looks like anger but really isn't anger. Cant react to things. Too much sound.

Yes. Sometimes I feel like I’m in the backseat trying to drive my body through a situation

I felt that for an extended period of time. My solution was to "back up" to the last childhood memories I felt represented me, as I am, before anything corrupted my original settings. I spent lots of little moments in between a normal day immersing myself in that. I'd find what was joyful, exciting, puzzling and hopeful there. Once I found how to reach inside like that, I could access it more and more quickly, which made it possible to recover myself simply by blinking. Eventually, the numbness subsided, despite the immediate situation remaining unchanged. I'm not sure this would work for everyone, but that's what I did.

Absolutely. Like the feelings just graze the surface, and don’t penetrate.

Yes. Dissociated.

Yeah sometimes. I feel like that when I'm in a rut.

Yes I have

Think about moving out of that apartment and find a place that allows dogs. You need a pet in your life.

I prefer to tell myself it's purely preoccupation....

Especially when I am hungry.

yes. or you just want them to stop talking.

Yes I have