I Feel Like A Failure At The Most Important Things In My Lif

I am deaf. Well not quite. My hearing is such that I hear people when they are very close and speak clearly. I do hear noises. It really is just a matter of hearing voices. I am very alone due to this.

I have waited years and years to try hearing aids again. Aparently technology has improved. I was given a pair a few weeks ago I was very hopeful that they may work just a little bit. bAftedr the fitting my friend took me to have coffee.

I was utterly devastated to find I was forced to remove the hearing aids to hear anything she said. This really hurt. It was as I had always expected...no one or nothing can help me. I told my friend that I was so hoping to articulate my soul.....

so it is back to the world I have always known and one that I sometimes understand and sometimes do not.