I Am a Complete Failure
It took me a while to realize it. I always felt lonely. So why does it hurt so much all of a sudden? I think I finally understand. It hurts, not because I'm downing in this well, but because for just a brief moment, I reached the surface of the water. And for just for that moment, I felt the air, and the warmth of the Sun above me. And I allowed myself to dream of that warmth for the very first time. To believe that I could climb out of that well.
But that Sun, it is not mine. The moment is passed, and I sank back to the bottom of the well. It hurts, not because I'm drowning, but because I can't forget the sunlight that brings warmth to someone else.
I can't climb out of my well. Whatever other people have to break free, I must lack. And I don't know what that is, therefore, I am doomed to a failure of a life, until I finally drown.
But that Sun, it is not mine. The moment is passed, and I sank back to the bottom of the well. It hurts, not because I'm drowning, but because I can't forget the sunlight that brings warmth to someone else.
I can't climb out of my well. Whatever other people have to break free, I must lack. And I don't know what that is, therefore, I am doomed to a failure of a life, until I finally drown.
31-35, M