Guilt Ridden Feelings at Karmic Backlash
I posted recently about someone who lives in my apartment building who has been throwing away all the food that I have been bringing in from a local food pantry, to share with all of my neighbors.
For a while, I was consumed with anger toward whomever it was that was performing this act of spite, (and just, frankly, evil). I asked for prayers for the person who was doing this to ALL the people who live in our apartment building...prayers for ALL of our residents who would not receive the food I brought in, and prayers for ME so that I would not feel such anger. The prayers for ME at least, have worked, and I no longer feel so angry. Instead I feel like..."It is what it is, and I can't change it."
I want to update all of you. The woman whom I suspected of performing this spiteful act actually FELL quite badly inside the community room where we keep the food that I bring in from a local food pantry.
She was badly hurt, and another neighbor had to take her to the hospital. She is home now, but her doctor has her on Gabapentin for nerve pain and/or seizures, and she is feeling quite dizzy. She can't even walk across the room without wavering and nearly falling. I know this because I brought her a large tray filled with cooked salmon, (her favorite), last week, in the hope that if we are very nice to her she will stop her depredations. She did not thank me.
I was updating my cleaning lady about the situation yesterday, (when she asked about it), and my cleaning lady, (who likes to keep me honest and on the straight and narrow), mentioned that we STILL don't know for sure who did the deed, because management refuses to let us know who was caught on video on Friday August 2nd carrying trash bags filled with good, fresh, food out of the community room. (Afterward, this person chucked all the fresh food in the trash).
In the end, I feel GUILTY because I worry that all the anger I felt and my airing the story, here, drew the attention of "the universe", and the universe lashed out at her.
At any rate, I hope you will all continue to pray for this woman, not with anger, but in a good and positive way, so that her mind, body, and soul will be healed.
Thank you for your prayers! 😊😊😊
For a while, I was consumed with anger toward whomever it was that was performing this act of spite, (and just, frankly, evil). I asked for prayers for the person who was doing this to ALL the people who live in our apartment building...prayers for ALL of our residents who would not receive the food I brought in, and prayers for ME so that I would not feel such anger. The prayers for ME at least, have worked, and I no longer feel so angry. Instead I feel like..."It is what it is, and I can't change it."
I want to update all of you. The woman whom I suspected of performing this spiteful act actually FELL quite badly inside the community room where we keep the food that I bring in from a local food pantry.
She was badly hurt, and another neighbor had to take her to the hospital. She is home now, but her doctor has her on Gabapentin for nerve pain and/or seizures, and she is feeling quite dizzy. She can't even walk across the room without wavering and nearly falling. I know this because I brought her a large tray filled with cooked salmon, (her favorite), last week, in the hope that if we are very nice to her she will stop her depredations. She did not thank me.
I was updating my cleaning lady about the situation yesterday, (when she asked about it), and my cleaning lady, (who likes to keep me honest and on the straight and narrow), mentioned that we STILL don't know for sure who did the deed, because management refuses to let us know who was caught on video on Friday August 2nd carrying trash bags filled with good, fresh, food out of the community room. (Afterward, this person chucked all the fresh food in the trash).
In the end, I feel GUILTY because I worry that all the anger I felt and my airing the story, here, drew the attention of "the universe", and the universe lashed out at her.
At any rate, I hope you will all continue to pray for this woman, not with anger, but in a good and positive way, so that her mind, body, and soul will be healed.
Thank you for your prayers! 😊😊😊
