I Struggle With Self Harm I want to cut so bad rn. I just want to cut so deep and watch it...

i noticed that whatever we do in a certain moment of our life , it appear absolutely logic and obvious , like there isn't any other possibilities , even when we are doing something wrong , so this mean that we tend to do something because we get used to that ending up becoming unable to do something different , but still , in order to get rid of this pain in the a** , we have to remember that none is forcing us to self harm , so , we can start by strongly focusing on thoughts about love ourselves rather than harm ourselves , because we are precious and our body is all what we have ,so we must care about us like we are a living treasure , then those self-harm thoughts will appear really inappropriate and wrong , when those thoughts disturb us , it mean that because of some errors we are thinking about them , so first of all focus on thoughts about self love , and if even during that we still get disturbed by those thoughts , well it only means that we have to better focus on self love, also , is important to become completely unable to think about any kind of sufferings and self arm and only able to conceive self love , even when we have to use brute force against someone , we must focus then make it natural the approach that allow us to badly defeat him\her in a " clean " way , the same goes if we have to put an end to the life of some cruel bastard , a painless and quick death , in other words , let just erase the sufferings in and our of ourselves , and more important , let's always be focused on ourselves , so we can do better everything else as a consequence of a proper caring of ourselves , sorry , english is my second language :P