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I Used to Self Harm

It has been quite a long time since I have cut. I have been going through a rough time lately and keep trying to keep my head up and not go back to my old ways. Today I was slicing an avocado and the knife slipped and cut my hand. I hate it, but it felt amazing. Even if it was an accident I feel like it is setting me back years.
i noticed that whatever we do in a certain moment of our life , it appear absolutely logic and obvious , like there isn't any other possibilities , even when we are doing something wrong , so this mean that we tend to do something because we get used to that ending up becoming unable to do something different , but still , in order to get rid of this pain in the a** , we have to remember that none is forcing us to self harm , so , we can start by strongly focusing on thoughts about love ourselves rather than harm ourselves , because we are precious and our body is all what we have ,so we must care about us like we are a living treasure , then those autolesionistic will appear really inappropriate and wrong , when those thoughts disturb us , it mean that because of some errors we are thinking about them , so first of all focus on thoughts about self love , and if even during that we still get disturbed by those thoughts , well it only means that we have to better focus on self love, also , is important to become completely unable to think about any kind of sufferings and self arm and only able to conceive self love , even when we have to use brute force against someone , we must focus then make it natural the approach that allow us to badly defeat him\her in a " clean " way , the same goes if we have to put an end to the life of some cruel bastard , a painless and quick death , in other words , let just erase the sufferings in and our of ourselves , and more important , let's always be focused on ourselves , so we can do better everything else as a consequence of a proper caring of ourselves , sorry , english is my second language :P
Panda97 · 26-30, T
I haven't self harmed in a bit. I used to during mental black outs, and when I got stressed.

Don't go back to it though, you've made so much progress. It can be hard, but in the long run it is better to find other ways to cope.
I am sorry for the rough time
SW-User
Try to socialize more and find things which keep u interested.

 
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