How do I feel better,

1. Im sick with a cold

2. I am having a very bad body image day, even after doing a hard strength training workout yesterday (Ive been wanting to lose weight since I was 13. 5"4 and 73kg at the mo) i hate my flat bum, big tummy, lack of real curves, and big fat bingo wing arms.

3. Boyfriend is ill so I cant talk to him about it (and dont feel comfy doing so since it has only been a month, plus he is literally doing the least to keep me with him but hey, he apologises all the time for being busy... just makes me feel shitty and unwanted but clingy and needy

4. I have to study for a test but I am just not up for it and feel bad because I am failing all of my classes right now but everyday procrastinate it (getting passes instead of the A's that I am predicted.

5. Current mood is triggering thoughts of my past

I feel like if I just sucked it up and got on with life I could study and get through it but tonight I feel so weak and tired and alone. Had to stop myself thinking of eating food as a comfort too.
Im trying to keep it together

Help anyone please

fabbadmire99 · 41-45, M

First your bf that you have is not into you , and yes it's normal to be needy and clingy . Its a sign you are needing to be heard and wanted . I feel the more you force yourself to not eat is making you more stressed out . You really need to give into those feelings and let go . Be happy and comfortable , your never going to keep it together if you keep hurting yourself like that .