Idk what to do rn
im 15, in year 10, but i havent attended a single day, (and my attendance has been bad since 2020, year 7) 2 days ago i went on a tour for a school im interested in, but idk how i feel about it, at my old school, to fit in you essentially just had to be outgoing, but at the new one, it makes you focus more on the learning than the socialising, but on the tour the girl giving the tour goes "you have to put your phone here for the whole day" and that only made me think about the fact i dont have a phone, so now im convinced that since i dont have one thing that everyone else has, theyll instantly hate me?? Idk whats wrong w my brain.. its like its searching for something to hate abt myself. Anyway, i just know that soon, im gonna have to choose. Go back to my old school wit my "friends", go to the new school and have a completely fresh start, or start looking for work, and i just wanna see if anyone has been in a similar situation and can give me some advice?? (If u wanna know more just lmk pls)