I need advice... Psychiatric hospitals/therapy
Poll - Total Votes: 14
Yes you should try typing it out to see if it helps.
No you should probably not.
No most likely need to find a new therapist
Yes but you should also consider a new therapist for better help
You may vote on multiple answers, up to 2.
I recently went to a psychiatric hospital I am nervous to share my experience about it with anyone.
Though I hate the fact that it repeats in my head and my family says to just forget about it and don't talk about it. It has caused me more PTSD than I already had. It plays in a loop inside my head and at moments I feel like I will wake up in that place again sometimes. I feel panic when I repeat the memory and can't help but have a pure panic attack out of it.
I wonder if I do share my story somewhere even in writing if it will help get rid of the loop in my head so much. So my question is should I just type it here or maybe consider just being quiet?
My main reason is I wonder if half the things I did do in there to avoid the trouble and force of medication being hidden away would get me in big trouble. I have done more than just that though, to be honest just to get by the days of medication and situations I was put in.
If anything I'm afraid of going back... and next time not being able to get out along with so much more.
I plan to quit therapy or find a new therapist also... due to them also sorta supporting the whole predicament happening and now am also considered for schizophrenia and I disagree. Though by this point considering what's happened in there I question if I do have it or not I got no clue anymore and I don't trust that place or my main current therapist anymore. I ended up going back to my family's place which is worse also due to the way I went to that hospital in the first place and fearing getting sent back. Just to let you know my family is terrible for so much gaslighting and other abuse in the past. They are not supportive of me speaking about it nor even my panic attacks getting any sort of help. This is also the family that has also never believed my claim of a family friend trying to sexually harass me when I was 10 and believed the guy instead and asked them themselves (which of course was denied) if they did or not. Saying I remember incorrectly when I was trying to gather evidence, especially with that mark he permanently left all those years ago on me from the many attempts. At that time I wasn't even sure my self if it actually happened too.
Never got that case due to having lack of evidence thanks to my family.
If you have any questions about anything I will respond either tonight or by tomorrow.
Though I hate the fact that it repeats in my head and my family says to just forget about it and don't talk about it. It has caused me more PTSD than I already had. It plays in a loop inside my head and at moments I feel like I will wake up in that place again sometimes. I feel panic when I repeat the memory and can't help but have a pure panic attack out of it.
I wonder if I do share my story somewhere even in writing if it will help get rid of the loop in my head so much. So my question is should I just type it here or maybe consider just being quiet?
My main reason is I wonder if half the things I did do in there to avoid the trouble and force of medication being hidden away would get me in big trouble. I have done more than just that though, to be honest just to get by the days of medication and situations I was put in.
If anything I'm afraid of going back... and next time not being able to get out along with so much more.
I plan to quit therapy or find a new therapist also... due to them also sorta supporting the whole predicament happening and now am also considered for schizophrenia and I disagree. Though by this point considering what's happened in there I question if I do have it or not I got no clue anymore and I don't trust that place or my main current therapist anymore. I ended up going back to my family's place which is worse also due to the way I went to that hospital in the first place and fearing getting sent back. Just to let you know my family is terrible for so much gaslighting and other abuse in the past. They are not supportive of me speaking about it nor even my panic attacks getting any sort of help. This is also the family that has also never believed my claim of a family friend trying to sexually harass me when I was 10 and believed the guy instead and asked them themselves (which of course was denied) if they did or not. Saying I remember incorrectly when I was trying to gather evidence, especially with that mark he permanently left all those years ago on me from the many attempts. At that time I wasn't even sure my self if it actually happened too.
Never got that case due to having lack of evidence thanks to my family.
If you have any questions about anything I will respond either tonight or by tomorrow.
