Question for moms...

How did you feel (emotionally) after giving birth? Did you have the baby blues? Or maybe it turned into PPD or PPA? How'd you get through it? Was your partner helpful, how? Did you have a good support system? I hope I dont bring up any negative memories or anything, I just would appreciate some advice or something. I dont know. This shit sucks. I have an appointment set up but for some reason I'm terrified and have so much anxiety. I'd rather cancel and try to move on, honestly.
Please don't leave any rude comments, I've beaten myself up enough already, I dont need anyone else adding to it