How do I fit in

I am at a point in my life where I am struggling to fit in with family that I have left. I was raised by my grandma. Where she went I went. It was only ever me and her. Now, I don’t have that anymore and I’m struggling to find where I belong. I don’t have the unwavering love and “drop everything” type of relationship with anyone else. I’ve tried. But I’m just an afterthought when building my relationships that I want so badly with my family. I don’t know what to do anymore.