Murder have you ever seriously considered it?

I genuinely consider myself a pacifist, I honestly don't think the death penalty justifiable for even the absolute very worst crimes yet pretty much of no circumstance of my current situation isn't really managing to find me good reasons against murdering my tormentor, this seems as though it's a very genuine option because if I could do it my life would improve immeasurably , obviously to anyone who knows me this is just a completely ludicrous thing because it's just not a me thing, apart from anything else I ain't got what it takes to take this prat down physically never mind mentally, nevertheless it's genuinely looking like if I could it would quite honestly be the best option as being locked up has every chance of being a better quality of life for me than my life is currently and I don't see any other way out from here. I maybe be barking mad but I suspect even in prison you may actually get a whole nights sleep more freakin frequently than around once every three months which is my current norm (I live in such poor quality housing on such a crazy estate that even with a white noise machine going and earplugs in I get woken on average 2-5 times a night every night, that is of course only if I'm very feckin lucky and manage to get back to sleep after the first time I'm awoken each night, and I can not find a way out except waiting this out for at least 4 years (universal credit makes moving not possible) possibly more and I know full well I really can't go on much longer, never mind 4 years. So if I ain't yet managed to bore youse to death have you ever wanted to kill someone and if so why?

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Jessmari · 41-45

Not to any serious degree. Maybe slap em around a bit but I don't even act on that although my neighbors might benefit from it.

AntisocialTroll · 56-60, F

@Jessmari Lol, no slapping about has occurred I'ma 4'9'' and he's a body building gym bunny so unless I could somehow manage to be as different both mentally or physically I've no chance...but hey this dumb twunt has twice tried to attack two of the guys of this building both of whom have never prior had so much as a disagreement with anyone on my estate let alone an actual fight and one of the peeps, whom having done literally nothing but defend himself he's gone for a totally understandably guilty plea despite doing nothing but defending himself rather than fight any kinda court case as his mam had not long died and it was just too much for him .I live in the sort of estate CH 4 makes docs from though we ain't yet been on the telly,but as he's literally only able to bully physically weaker or those who are really struggling (and you wouldn't beleive how good this bloke is at picking on peeps when they are at their most vulnerable he's currently able to run amok (I'm disabled, trust me thats the only reason he's not been slapped by me personally)and anyone else he seems to manage to have prosecuted because he's so very mentally ill with his personality disorders he's able to convince the court HE IS BEING PICKED ON! (this man has been evicted in the past for way less than he's getting away with now but my local council really are that crap 3 people have already moved out of my building because of this charmer in the last two years and if I get my way I will be the forth as they simply don't have either the wits or the will to deal with him snag is it'll cost me money for years to come due to the benefits system so theoretically I could move but as my local council does not believe it right to give points for harassment I'm stuck, screwed, buggered etc even if I'm prepared to lose me disability premium and the extra rights that went with it I really need I have no way of moving as having put in all the forms over a month ago my area has no housing officer hasn't had for the last two years so all I ever do is talk to temps who literally do nothing.

Please excuse, me world salad and despair, certainly hadn't expected to spill me guts on a simple reply but I just needed to bleat very sorry.

Jessmari · 41-45

@AntisocialTroll Your situation sounds very frustrating and I can understand that. I hope you find a way out it or the guy ends up getting booted somehow to reduce that stressful atmosphere.