I’m being mentally and emotionally abused and it’s starting to make me suicidal

I can’t get over my ex and he knows that so he keeps torturing me into doing whatever he wants and when I don’t comply, he blocks me and gives me panic attacks because I have bpd. Then when we’re back talking and he’s just being verbally abusive and always yelling and cursing at me. On top of that, I feel like he wants the girl he cheated on me with instead of me and he’s only talking to me because she’s not talking to him. I just feel like I can’t live without him especially because I’m all in this area alone. This is a cry for help

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eMortal · M

You got a lot of issues on your own. You don't need him to add to that. Seriously, the good thing to do here for you is to talk to a professional. You know something's wrong when an abusive ex blocks you on social media and it still bothers you.

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eMortal · M

@eerie Still! It shouldn't bother you. If it does, I would say your feelings for him are very unhealthy.

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ZedsLeppelin2 · 56-60, F

@eerie Your heart breaking over someone you thought loved you and vice versa, is what all of us old people have gone through while at your age.

Both of my sons (20 yrs apart) had their hearts broken by their 1st "love" when they were both 15 years old..and oh man it's heartbreaking for a mom to see their happy son(s) at 15 yrs trying not to cry over a girl that broke up with them, where you as their mother KNOW that they'll eventually get over her, but also having to bite your tongue about YOUR feelings of the girl who broke your 15 year old son's heart, to instead be respectful of your sonS feelings who FEEL that she was "the ONE", knowing that she was NOT the one lol.

My eldest son whose heart was broken at 15,is now living his best life being married with 3 boys of his own, and my 20 yr old son who got his heart broken at 15 as well, is now living his best life living away at college playing a sport he loves....thus having no interest at all in having a girlfriend to tie him down while living his best life.

Find what truly inspires YOU to live your best life at your young age, instead of wasting your time on some a*hole who doesn't get you.