I’m being mentally and emotionally abused and it’s starting to make me suicidal

I can’t get over my ex and he knows that so he keeps torturing me into doing whatever he wants and when I don’t comply, he blocks me and gives me panic attacks because I have bpd. Then when we’re back talking and he’s just being verbally abusive and always yelling and cursing at me. On top of that, I feel like he wants the girl he cheated on me with instead of me and he’s only talking to me because she’s not talking to him. I just feel like I can’t live without him especially because I’m all in this area alone. This is a cry for help

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Tatsumi · 31-35, M

While I have a lot of empathy for you on the panic attack thing, you are your own person. He doesn't control you. You're being controlled by your emotions.

You can live without him. Clearly, you can't live with him, either.

Cut the chord, eerie. Get some support. Maybe an Emotions Anonymous meeting, a 12-step program in dealing with emotions. There will also be people who understand there. A community revolving around sharing your issues wouldn't be the worst thing in the world, would it?

In any case, what do you see in the near future, if things continue like this?

Tatsumi · 31-35, M

@Tatsumi I believe there's also a CoDependents Anonymous.

https://emotionsanonymous.org/what-we-offer/find-a-meeting/us.html
http://locator.coda.org/