Finically struggling

It’s an up hill battle all the time I can’t manage to save money, I can’t afford to lease a car because I don’t have credit so I cant get a credit card or a loan I’ve literally lost everything I ever had to my name.. sometimes I just want to die I hate my life I truly do I feel trapped I can’t afford to feed my self through the work week and I have to much pride to accept handouts from my coworkers it’s no ones responsibility but my own to make sure I’m fed,my problems are related to money everything revolves around money you can’t live without money you can’t even die without money someone has to pay for your funeral.. I’m screwed I’m in a dead end don’t see myself winning