would you do it if blinded in love/lust

Long confession,short.I met this attractive man in a wedding,he gave me hint,i was in.As i didn't have a friend,my need to be social lead me into an affair. Me and hubby were having disputes those times,so i feel pleased in avenging him.Alright cheating isn't big deal nowdays,but the following may take me to hell.i used to call my new bf at night in a burkha so as to hide him from in laws and neighbours,and we either gave sleeping pills to my husband or sniff him chloroform.One day mother in law caught us, but i blackmalied her to book her in a false dowry case which is a strict law in my nation,and we continued our misdeeds.My bf having inhumane nature,trapped me in doing so even when i was with my partner in vacation outside. As lust is one of the 7 mortal sins,me and my hubby are both facing consequencies,i got women health problems,and other issues,while pills gave my husband various after side effects.That prick is blackmailing me from ending the affair.I live in constant fear of getting the affair disclosed to hubby,My in laws dosen't help me in ill health.I love my husband and i will never leave him for anything.How can i seek Redemption;Priest asked me to disclose everything to my hubby as if it is that simple,no man on earth will forgive me for this.How can i save myself from going to hell.I am crying tears of blood.Trust me ,do anything but cheat on your partner.

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Mindful · 56-60, F

Sadly you are already in mental hell. The biggest problem now is the guy wants to keep having you.

No the biggest problem is that you want revenge when someone hurts you. You have to let yourself calm down and remember why they are valuable to you inspite of their imperfections.

You want to be treated with respect but you did not treat your partner with the same respect.

If you really don’t want to see he guy anymore, stop seeing him. If he tell the truth at least it won’t be you who revealed this sin to your hubby. If you tell him , although that may be the right thing to do, then just know that your relationship will never ever be the same.Even if he doesn’t leave you— it will change. Just like any other friendship— something’s are forgivable and some are not. If he is decent honest respectful to you, He deserves the truth— but more importantly, he deserves a loving wife. If he thinks you are loyal, be true to him now. But don’t use the excuse of getting caught as a reason to continue the affair.Thats a lie. You maybe lying to yourself about many things. Learn how to deal with disappointment and anger is a healthier way, or you will struggle with this alwaysz

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