I Need Someone to Talk to

I envy people who have phones full of numbers of people who they can call and talk to whenever. Who have people who would drop everything to help even if that help is just listening. I come from a large family and am around lots of people yet I don't have one who even thinks about me much less wants to talk or hang out. I sought therapy to sort of have someone even if you're paying for it and that hasn't worked. I always get sent to someone else because I'm "too severe" for them to handle. I talk to myself sometimes, I journal and do my level best to chat online but it doesn't fill the void of having someone.